big girls still cry

i miss having a big brother to take care of me, even we dont have a blood ties. I miss a guy friends that talks to me with respect. I wish for a lots of money, so I can have my own in everything. I dont want to rent a house but i want to own it, i love to have a penthouse someday. Im missing something that i've never own. I dont know what is it. I hate to do part time job for money, but i love to do it for experience. I've seen many arrogant people ever since i live alone without my family here. I've met many good people too. I miss my ex housemates. I miss listening to their gossips. I miss hangout with them. I miss baah,adda,kak ct, nurul n also chiquita friends: dilla, anis, aien, dek an, Liya, bella, nadia n kak ila. I still remember the moment i cry when i have to deal with ulat sampah when 1 of my ex housemate eat nasi ayam n throw inside the dustbin then she's back to her hometown. I miss my busy life. I miss my lazy times. I hate a feeling when sometimes i feel like im the burden they have to carry. I hate sarcastic people. I hate people who likes to let me down. I really dislike crying but that's what i do almost every week. I really love who i am, the way every inches of my body my face looks like, it just so imperfect, but im grateful. I have many type of people 'round me. Some of them sometimes talk before they even think of the words. I maybe change, either it's the good or bad for them, they still judge. Bodoh. Tiada benda lain mau buat ka? I miss sep & rezza, both like big brothers for me. I miss dunkin donut times too, with ainul & nony. I miss having savings for clothes & shoes like im used to the moment i just came here. To be continue..... =='